the truth-

So after the events of last night (see below) Brandon and I debated on whether or not to share everything that is going on because things are very scary and very touch-n-go at the moment but we decided that people have been so kind and generous and caring and that if we want to accurately tell her story we must tell the whole story. Around 2:00pm yesterday Camilla's EEG began showing seizure activity although we were not noticing and clinical presentation (not seeing her body react in any way). As the day went on things became more frequent and stronger and about 8:00pm she had 2 seizures that looked strangely different than anything we had seen before. They lasted for about 30 seconds and her face did nothing but twitch in all different directions the whole time. It was very frightening for us because we are not used to her seizures lasting that long. Dr. Kim (neuro) was called and she logged in from home to review the EEG and video to confirm seizure activity. After about 30 minutes of watching our nurse on and off the the phone she came in to say that indeed Camilla was having seizures and there was cause for concern because of the atypical presentation. For one thing the seizures were effecting the right side of her face and if you'll remember Camilla has had a Corpus Callosotomy (right and left hemispheres don't communicate anymore) and thus far has only shown activity in the right hemisphere of the brain (where the grids are) which controls the left side of the body. So how could she be seizing on the right side of her body - red flag. Dr. Kim also noticed that according to the EEG Camilla had been seizing continually for over an hour (not a clinical presentation) so she immediately ordered a dose of Lamictal to try and stop the seizure activity but had Ativan brought in just in case Camilla began having a tonic-clonic/grand mal seizure that lasted over 5 minutes. Before we could even finish giving Camilla the medicine the techs from radiology were in our room to take her down for a CT scan. Upon returning from the CT scan Dr. Blount (neurosurgeon) was standing at the nurses station reviewing the results. The verdict: Camilla has a blood clot that is located between the grid and the bone flap and we had some decisions to make quickly. Our options were to 1)go in immediately and get the clot out and we could leave grids in (since we have not gotten enough correct monitoring of her seizures) or we could take everything out, wait 10 days and start all over 2) wait until we have enough seizure monitoring to do the resection surgery or 3) do surgery Monday and give a resection our best shot. We (mostly Kim & Blount) chose option 3. We do not feel comfortable waiting past Monday to correct the clot for fear of it causing further damage. We don't want to put Camilla through any more surgeries than are absolutely neccessary and we don't want to come this far without having accomplished something. The doctors feel confident about 3 areas that have continued to show 'activity' since immediately following surgery. Would we love to see a typical seizure in order to see if there are any other areas affected and to see how these three areas react - sure - in a perfect world but we don't live in a perfect world. We knew there would be tough decisions, we know this one is not our first and won't the the last on this journey but this is what we ALL feel led to do. One thing to note is that we are monitoring Camilla like crazy today (I really don't know another way to describe it) they are watching everything and if she starts to show any deterioration in her vitals or her alertness (meaning the clot is causing problems) we will drop all plans and be in the operating room within the hour to pull everything out (and would start over in 10 days). So there you have it - the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. This is Camilla's story - this is our journey. So how is everyone doing - we're good - no really - we're GOOD. We can feel God at work in the midst of this situation and she is HIS child and He is leading her care. Of course there are tears, we are human afterall but there is a peace that passes ALL understanding surrounding us. God is giving Camilla an amazing testimony and we look forward to how He will continue to use this little girl for His glory (remember - He has plans for her hope and her future). In searching and reading, these verses always find us and touch us: 1 Peter 5 6-11 "Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen." I will continue to update as possible. We covet your prayers during this time - I'm not even clear on the specifics to ask for but just how God leads you. "For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE." Jereimah 29:11